a day that feels like one year

Deep breathe. Inhale. Exhale. What an exhausting day. They left me. They really left without me. Oh how I wish to be with them tonight and leave brother Ayame here all alone.

"What a sad thing to say."

I couldn't say I'm angry at the gang. Instead, I'm a little angry at my brother. Does he have to bother Honda-san, Shigure and... well he can have Kyo, so that he could have his own way of dealing his problems with me? FYI, I didn't leave him. He left me and forgot. I may sound selfish but he has to solve it in a way that it's acceptable for me. Are there no other ways to show his brotherhood? But, I'm impressed that he persuaded other people to help him. He is something. Somewhat charismatic -- in a weird sense.

I'm beginning to see that he acts naive to be an older brother. Demo, I appreciate his effort.

I would be lying if I said I haven't discovered anything new about my brother. I found out that he's really loud. I found out that he's much bolder than me. I don't know if he's the serious type of person. Which reminds me:

"Brother, are you sure that you're going to cook dinner? We could order out."

"I want to cook! I want to try out what Miine taught me." You'd better not kill me.

I'm really really exhausted. After eating dinner, I'll take a shower and head straight to sleep. It's like building a whole subdivision, building back our brotherhood.

"Soueba, Tohru and the gang will be here tomorrow morning right?"

"Iie, they will come back Monday afternoon." How I wish I could faint right now. "What are you doing right now, little brother? Don't tell me you're writing a journal! Can I take a look?! Gimme that?! I am your older brother do as I say! Come on! I just want to read your latest! Even scribbles will do! Pretty please? With sugar and marshmallows on top?"